Do you ever feel like you are too much?
That the way you see the world intimidates others?
That you need to “tone” it down?
Have you been made to feel small and any conversation that you are in you second guess yourself?
I used to listen to these LIES too……
For years I didn’t even hear these thoughts in my head until a series of negative circumstances began to bombard me.
One time a person who I respected and I was in community with told me “Cindy, people are scared of you……” . This statement came with no explanation. Only a finger pointing at me as they sat back in their chair. Immediately the shadow of shame came over me…..I had no words, and I let the words take residence. To be honest it wasn’t the first time a sentence like this had been thrown at me without evidence. Usually I would walk away and let the words die but this time I had absorbed too much and they settled on me like a cloud of dust I couldn’t shake it.
It was a downward spiral of shame for me. The kind of thoughts and feelings that echo “there is something really wrong with you”. Second guessing myself and who God had called me to be.
I wallowed in this feeling of wrongness for some time.
I knew in my heart the only way to shake off the shame was to spend time with my Maker. The ONE who made me, the ONE who was certain He knew what he was doing when He put me together……the ONE who loved me as I was…by spending time with Him…..
He sent us someone who is our counselor the one who knows the TRUTH of who we are regardless of the shenanigans we find our self in.
I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Advocate, who will never leave you. He is the Holy Spirit, who leads into all truth
John 14:16 – 17
Spend time with Him and listen for the truth………
Here is some truth…..
For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
Psalm 139: 13 – 14
And Yet another TRUTH
For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
I Timothy 1:7
What I quickly found is when spending time with the one who leads us to truth is
we are NEVER too EXTRA…….Because God is so much more.